DISCOGRAPHY



album.song

RELAX
29.01 Never Fails - November 10, 2025. basic idea is if you quit something it gets good again.
29.02 Beautiful Things - November 2, 2025. unfortunately the real world is too often ugly. innocence lost
29.03 Relax - November 5, 2025. don't rush through life. stop and think things through and solutions often present themselves .
29.04 My Reality - November 12, 2025. We all have our own limitations and things that stop us. we can still be happy and make the most of our situation


CLOWN
28.01 Clown - October 28, 2025. about a woman who fhttps://neocities.org/site_files/text_editor?filename=allsongs.html#alls in love with a scary creepy clown picture.
28.02 Circus of our Love - October 29, 2025. i first had the idea circus of love, and ended up with this.
28.03 Higher- October 31, 2025. trying to have a relationship with someone who loves drugs more than you
28.04 Almost Every Day - October 31, 2025. Parallel of personal relationship and left and right viewpoints. original thought "we are not the same"
28.05 You Don't Love Me - November 2, 2025. when they don't feel the same love
28.06 Amusement - November 2, 2025. i am what i am i.e. don't make fun of me for my human element. and i am not just here for your amusement
28.07 Hopeless Romantic - November 2, 2025. inspire by me saving fantasy type scenes and artwork on pinterest.
28.08 One Night, One Look - November 7, 2025.had the idea, one night, one look, was all it took.
28.09 Life is what you make it - November 8, 2025. Inspired by Marshawn Kneeland
28.10 Oblivion - November 13, 2025. The basic idea was just stop talking about something. let it go away and die. maybe kind of corny i dunno

HALF-LIGHT
27.01 Blood Red and Rising - October 14, 2025. its about a real person beseiged by fake politicians. similar to my song, "The Way I Am"
27.02 Way Past Palestine - October 17, 2025. one of those songs that the words just flow out of my brain in like 5 minutes. inspired by someone i saw walking along the road west of Alto TX on july 11, 2025
27.03 Orange and Blue - October 18, 2025. About a time April 1, 1995. can you feel things at the location of a past tragedy? does it evoke strong feelings. can past ghosts live in you
27.04 Half-Light - October 20, 2025. people look and seem different in dim lightning looks you never would have taken as sensual you see
27.05 Grounded in Sublime - October 22, 2025. this started off going to be a song called "the way i roll", and wow, it turned into this
27.06 Break Bad Attitude - October 22, 2025. was going to be called Shy is my Attitude,then i thought bad attitude, then i came up break bad attitude. a sort of once bitten twice shy song.
27.07 The Best Yet - October 23, 2025. written for the album. totally made up
27.08 Blown Away - October 24, 2025. about trusting in God. forget about your failures and quit worrying JESUS IS LORD!
27.09 Zoom in - October 25, 2025 take a closer look. see each thing and everyone for what they are
27.10 For a Little While- October 26, 2025. i've actually used the phrase "for a little while" in 6 other songs in varying applications. i guess the fact that life and love is so fleeting and precious is not lost on me. this is just about how things change, you, your outlook, and the world,

WHAT WE BELIEVED
26.01 Easy Ones - September 30, 2025. messing up on the easiest decisions in life.this was the 1st song written, before cover selection for this album.
26.02 Radical Skeptic - October 3, 2025. before i knew it was a thing, i sometimes thought this. a radicial skeptic, like Rene Descartes was
26.03 What we believed - October 5, 2025. freedom lost
26.04 Bring me down - October 5, 2025. written for album inspired by cover. sounds like my older song Don't celebrate
26.05 Cusp of Love - October 3, 2025. was going to initially be called Trust. written for album inspired by cover
26.06 Torn Lace - October 6, 2025. paperback romance.
26.07 Empty Hearts Parade - October 9, 2025. written for album theme.going to be "Rocked by the Waves", but went this direction. error on vocals- should be "disgusting senseless violence"
26.08 Falling For a Feeling - October 10, 2025. wanna be in love. written for the album cover
26.09 Written in Sand - October 12, 2025. romance never had a chance. written for the album cover
26.10 Push My Buttons - October 13, 2025. about the highs and lows of a couple who are too much alike.

BORDERLINE
25.01 Borderline - September 21, 2025. after i thought of this i remembered another song of the same name, but they are totally different. so i went ahead with the project. this song is about a woman who is almost happy , in fact her whole past has been an abusive shifting imaginary line drawn in the sand, a borderline. and also, understandably she's borderline nuts
25.02 I'm Still Standing- September 20, 2025. the idea was basically about the realization that you notice you're slipping a bit mentally. could simply be from having a lot on your mind. or more serious ptsd, anxiety, or a nervous breakdown. past drugs or abuse, disease or just getting older. some things you did and you can't even remember but proud of what you've accomplished in your life . and unsure of what the future holds , but still standing
25.03 Hush - September 22, 2025. you can't have your cake and it eat it too uh uh
25.04 Summer Rain - September 22, 2025. stark southern realism playing make believe. about an idea i've had for a few years put to words fits on this album
25.05 Back seat - September 25, 2025. it's not always fun and games in the back seat. bad luck, bad reputation. written for album theme
25.06 Real Life Fantasy - September 24, 2025. about that person you know is perfect for you, but you'll never have. written for album.
25.07 F.y.i. - September 28, 2025. its about ppl that are ugly on the inside and you have to spell it out to them why you're leaving
25.08 Fool in Love - September 26, 2025. innocence lost can't get it back
25.09 They're Lying to You - September 28, 2025. the news, the voices in your head, everybody is lying to you. originally was an idea to be titled "Part of me Believes"
25.10 Soul Scream - September 29, 2025. its about your soul screaming because of the less than holy life you've led. i was going to re-write it and title "Life of mine" but decided not to

FINAL REVOLUTION
24.01 Final Revolution - September 12, 2025.
24.02 Whirlpool - September 9, 2025. this song is about sitting back with your eyes closed on a sunny day and not really wanting to think about anything. kind of like watching clouds and seeing things except with your eyes closed
24.03 Sometimes we do - September 18, 2025. when i woke up this morning out of nowhere this was on my mind.
24.04 High card wins - September 11, 2025. it should be so simple. rip Charlie Kirk
24.05 Fly Naive Angel - September 7, 2025. for Iryna Zarutska
24.06 Lavender Beret - September 10, 2025. this song is about finding your way out of a maze of a relationship that has some baggage . and an old photo of me thinking i look cool in my lavendar beret before the shitshow began
24.07 Vines - September 18, 2025. just a your average song about vines :) it occurred to me how unruly and aggressive vines are. they don't wait around to cover something up in the absence of man, who tries to thrive like vines, but can't w/o love
24.08 Rule the Tides - September 18, 2025. written for album theme. initially this was going to be centered around "is it such a large price to pay" , about what each of us can do to peacefully co-exist with fellow man. and then it turned into maybe we're gonna need some help
24.09 Come Together - September 21, 2025. honestly no sexual implications came into my thoughts when writing this. i was thinking about the puzzle of it all, and how we are all different unique pieces but stronger when locked together, but hearing the seeking pleasure part really makes it sound like sex. maybe i was subconsciously thinking that.
24.10 Momentum - September 9, 2025.

SNOWFLAKE
23.01 Snowflake- August 31, 2025. not a political statement. just basically the idea that we are all snowflakes melting
23.02 Parapraxis - August 31, 2025. written for the album theme
23.03 Ana Put an X - September 1, 2025.like most of my songs, hastily written. about a one time experience of my own (coupled with a friend of mine's experience) intended to be neither pro or con, but perhaps presenting an overly favorable view of Ana. she really can be quite jealouslike most of my songs, hastily written. about a one time experience of my own (coupled with a friend of mine's experience) intended to be neither pro or con, but perhaps presenting an overly favorable view of Ana. she really can be quite jealous
23.04 Sashayed - August 23, 2025.
23.05 Something in mind - September 15, 2025. switched this with Fly Naive Angel which was written earlier
23.06 Made of Glass - September 4, 2025. in medieval times there was a thing referred to as the Glass Delusion, where people actually thought they were made of glass...
23.07 Nightshift - September 5, 2025. written for theme. all over the place on this one. rough, but the idea is basically a troubled (or gifted?) anti-social person working the nightshift
23.08 I don't posture - August 30, 2025. this was the first song for the album and what it's about
23.09 Screw circling the wagons - Sep 2, 2025. a quirky song. once i get started on a song i am compelled to follow through, so here it is. inspired by my real life belief that you should always take life by the horns as it comes at you. also sort of inspired after watching a 2022 movie with Taylor Jabara . don't let others dictate to you, your best chance is usually to fight from the start. i won't dis the movie but ugh. i did love taylor though
23.10 Jealous Lover - September 2, 2025. inspired by the song Ana put an x

THE WEEK BEFORE CHRISTMAS
22.01 Slow-ho-ho-ho as Christmas - August 20, 2025
22.02 Rejoice in Christmas - August 19, 2025.
22.03 The Week Before Christmas - August 17, 2025.
22.04 Enjoy the Hoopla - August 21, 2025.
22.05 A Christmas Wish - August 20, 2025.
22.06 Lost in December - August 19, 2025. about bad family past and xmas struggles
22.07 Christmas in a bag- August 18, 2025. santa as a hobo boozin.originally entitled "drinking christmas" i know this song is kinda corny but i wanted to put it on here anyway. the earlier version was scrapped becuz it was too vague about the identity of the hobo i'm sure it's been done before but its a new idea to me. and also it's an effort to fuse that crazy story with the idea that christmas can be rough and maybe everyone needs a little nip to get through it
22.08 Orion the Hunter - August 24, 2025 merge of the icon of orion and nativity
22.09 A Different World at Chritmastime - August 25, 2025.
22.10 Pray for Peace - August 18, 2025. loosely based on Ukraine/Russia peace talks -

ILLUSION OF LOVE
21.01 Both of us Know - August 8, 2025. we both know it will never happen wait but did it?
21.02 Illusion of Love - August 8, 2025. wanted to write a cool song like pablo cruise
21.03 On the 3rd day, majesty - August 10, 2025. morph/merge of 3rd day creation, and majesty w/love
21.04 Moth to Flame - August 10, 2025. written for the theme
21.05 Live your dream - August 9, 2025
21.06 Charlatans in our midst - August 11, 2025. poking fun of faux intellectualss
21.07 Please don't tell me how it ends - August 12, 2025. i really do not want to know how it ends
21.08 Betrayal - August 13, 2025. i woke in the night messed up, hit blindside. i really love this song.
21.09 What holds me here - August 14, 2025. written for the theme
21.10 My eyes know a lie - August 15, 2025. written for the theme

STEEL OF THE NIGHT
20.01 Don't lose your edge -August 1, 2025. this was the original idea for album and inspired the cover
20.02 Steel of the n ight - August 2, 2025. play on "still" of the night and the album cover
20.03 Wake Me - August 1, 2025. current events, political, play on woke
20.04 Race - August 3, 2025. about how life is like a race between birth and death
20.05 Here Be Dragons - August 4, 2025. sort of written inspired by album cover, about ancient maps
20.06 The weakest link - August 4, 2025. how weak are treated is important, somewhat inspired by album cover
20.07 One word leads to hurt - August 5, 2025. about explosive anger disorder
20.08 Vestibule - August 6, 2025. between heaven and hell
20.09 Firestorm - August 7, 2025. inspired by the J-Lo movie Enough and somewhat by album cover
20.10 Mercy brings - August 8, 2025. inspired by feeling Firestorm was too extreme

HEADFIRST
19.01 Sometimes vanity - July 27, 2025.
19.02 Headfirst - July 28, 2025.
19.03 Long story short- July 23, 2025.
19.04 Rainy Day - July 23, 2025.
19.05 Read my mind - July 24, 2025. this was the inspiration for the album cover
19.06 Frankly I do - July 29, 2025. current events, political
19.07 Unfazed - July 30, 2025.
19.08 Chasing Rainbows - July 26, 2025. youth spent on material things rather than real things and doing good
19.09 Take my hand - July 29, 2025. inspired by album cover. helping a friend recover from drug addiction
19.10 Lost in the Lines - July 30, 2025. inspired by album cover about life and aging

CRYSTAL WORLD
18.01 True love skills - July 9, 2025. was going to be true love kills. but skills is so much better. original idea was from feelin still feels the same,which i heard somebody say on x .
18.02 Rogue - July 10, 2025. about a past flame no regrets
18.03 Running Wild - July 10, 2025. goes with the album and the story. red line part 1
18.04 Crystal World - July 13, 2025. inspired by black sabbath snowblind of all things. she made it to the top in her world
18.05 Gently into the night - July 13, 2025. take off on some old poem, which despite what it says is wrong
18.06 Song in my head - July 13, 2025. i thought of this driving to east texas and i really like it
18.07 Hill to die on - July 16, 2025. the final love in my life who i will be with until i die
18.08 Played - July 14, 2025. young but not dumb
18.09 Red line - July 17, 2025. how you feel when you know it's never gonna be alright
18.10 Myriad - July 18, 2025.

NO RULES
17.01 No Rules - July 3, 2025. first song for the album. generated the iidea for the album cover
17.02 All of my life - July 3, 2025.
17.03 Toll on me - July 4, 2025.
17.04 Echoes - July 5, 2025. better than i thought it would be actually
17.05 Murder in the first - July 6, 2025.
17.06 Breakaway - July 7, 2025. written for album theme. love this song
17.07 Touch Me - July 8, 2025.if you would just touch me. this is one of my better efforts i think
17.08 Controversy - July 8, 2025. familiar theme but one that baffles me
17.09 Love is the way - July 8, 2025.
17.10 Crash - July 8, 2025. written for the album theme. really good i think

NIGHT OF DREAMS
16.01 Night of dreams - June 16, 2025. a song about a night of dreams i had
16.02 Left alone - June 16, 2025. album theme. mary magdalene was left alone
16.03 Be kind - June 16, 2025. album theme
16.04 Halo of light - June 17, 2025. jesus for album theme.
16.05 Find the strength - June 17, 2025. written for album. mary magdalene
16.06 Another world - June 18, 2025. written for album theme.
16.07 Menagerie - June 18, 2025.
16.08 Wished for - June 19, 2025. written for cover theme.
16.09 Refracted - June 21, 2025. written for cover theme.
16.10 Behind the veil - June 22, 2025. written for cover theme.

SMOKYBLUE
15.01 Smoky Blue - June 5, 2025
15.02 Lady luck- June 10, 2025
15.03 Granted - June 11, 2025
15.04 Transom in my mind - June 2, 2025
15.05 Catches you - June 1, 2025
15.06 Wildflowers - June 2, 2025
15.07 I found a button- June 3, 2025
15.08 Grow - June 5, 2025. i didn't know there was a word for this, which i believe is classified as an emotion called Ellipsism. This is the term given to a sense of sadness one experiences when realizing that one won’t live to see the future.
15.09 What was in my heart - June 10, 2025.
15.10 Love cascades - June 12, 2025.

BRAVE
14.01 New Horizon -May 25, 2025
14.02 Flailing - May 25, 2025
14.03 Bruised - May 27, 2025
14.04 She breaks down - May 26, 2025
14.05 Never made any sense - May 27, 2025. About Meniere's Disease
14.06 Brave - May 27, 2025
14.07 Pick up the pieces - May 29, 2025.
14.08 What i can do - May 29, 2025
14.09 A moment- May 29, 2025
14.10 Only one - May 30, 2025

DOMINO EFFECT
13.01 Domino effect - May 21, 2025
13.02 Too Late - May 22, 2025
13.03 Blackjack - May 18, 2025
13.04 Bluest Skies - May 23, 2025. a dark little song...
13.05 A Million to none- May 20, 2025
13.06 Aftermath - May 22, 2025
13.07 I'll never stop - May 19, 2025
13.08 What happens next - May 19, 2025
13.09 Conflict - May 23, 2025
13.10 Overload - May 20, 2025

WRONG ENDING
12.01 Wrong ending - May 10,2025
12.02 Wish i had a dime - May 11, 2025
12.03 Being told - May 13, 2025
12.04 Awe of it all - May 14, 2025
12.05 Rollin in it - May 12, 2025
12.06 Just desserts - May 15, 2025
12.07 My sweet time - May 15, 2025
12.08 Curveball - May 16, 2025
12.09 Free Spirit - May 17, 2025
12.10 Miracle in the making - May 15, 2025

RAISED ON RERUNS
11.01 Misled - May 9, 2025
11.02 Everyone wants it - May 9, 2025
11.03 Way back when - May 8, 2025
11.04 Take each day - May 10, 2025. About dealing with a terminal illness
11.05 Raised on Reruns - May 6, 2025
11.06 Use it up - May 6, 2025
11.07 On the rebound - April 24, 2025
11.08 Crushed - April 22, 2025
11.09 Start a revolution - April 23, 2025
11.10 He never held her - May 2, 2025

TWIRLED
10.01 Twirled - April 11, 2025.
10.02 The way I am - April 13, 2025
10.03 If we were poor - April 11, 2025
10.04 Reignited - April 14, 2025
10.05 Blind Date - April 15, 2025
10.06 Confidence - April 15, 2025
10.07 I might be falling - April 21, 2025
10.08 Make Me - April 13, 2025
10.09 Whispering - April 21, 2025
10.10 In a small town - April 21, 2025

THEY CAN'T TAKE THE NIGHT
09.01 Faith - April 8, 2025
09.02 Watch me - April 10, 2025
09.03 All i ever wanted - April 4, 2025
09.04 I'm Up to you - April 8, 2025.
09.05 I miss the laughs - April 4, 2025. political satire and intrigue
09.06 They can't take the night - April 4, 2025. lyrics got messed up my bad. this is about people like bill gates and soros who try to dicatate to common people with common sense their crazy perverted ideas but they cannot change basic human desires and simple things in life like a man and a woman falling in love and just enjoying being alive and feeling good about it
09.07 Cruelly - April 8, 2025.another candidate for my worst. just supposed to be a 70s disco song about some awesome disco girl making the other girls look bad on the dance floor
09.08 To be the one - April 5, 2025. about a disturbing murder.
09.09 Names - April 6, 2025. lol probably my worst..
09.10 Ever after - April 9, 2025.

TIME WON'T SLOW DOWN
08.01 People are weird - March 28, 2025.thank god that ppl are weird. this was initially the album name, not sure why i changed it
08.02 Time won't slow down - March 31, 2025. time really won't slow down..sad but true it gets faster the older you get
08.03 Erratic - March 26, 2025. keep austin weird
08.04 Sake and Caviar - March 30, 2025. okinawa love story
08.05 Belle - March 22, 2025. it's about the woman on the ship, that is part of the ship
08.06 Shrouded - March 26, 2025. you're a mystery
08.07 Broken Promises - March 25, 2025. wasted time in a relationship
08.08 Secrets in the Wind - March 26, 2025. old flames in the night
08.09 Mortified - March 27, 2025. in debt and panicking
08.10 They gave me the drug - April 1, 2025. i'm the governor of some great wasteland

ENEMY IN ME
07.01 My own worst enemy- March 18, 2025. why do i keep hurting me
07.02 The Thunder - March 17, 2025. two kids a car a camera and storms to chase
07.03 Jinx - March 20, 2025. supposed to be a hetero romance despite female vocals. about that girl who used to be wild but straighten up and left u behind
07.04 I just closed my eyes - March 20, 2025. the world could be a lot better, simpler place if it wasn't for mean greedy people
07.05 Who held the gun - March 19, 2025. cop story about guns
07.06 Tumultuous - March 16, 2025. experimenting with punky sound. about a poor couple with a crazy life
07.07 Stone's throw from hollywood - March 19, 2025. thought of this walking in woods.she makes it nearly to hollywood, but turns around
07.08 Goodbye Rosie - March 22, 2025. about rosie o'donnel
07.09 Little things - March 18, 2025. lame song about little trinkets you find leftover after a relationship ends. originally set to opera
07.10 In My Shoes - March 20, 2025. attempt at humor and blues

SHADOWS FALL
06.01 Not your puppet - March 14, 2025. tired of being jerked around in a relationship
06.02 Dared - March 6, 2025. she had enough. she dared to do it.
06.03 On the Night - March 19, 2025 anniversary
06.04 Shadows Fall - March 15, 2025. time eventually catches up to everybody and everything
06.05 Patterns - March 17, 2025. about patterns. thought of this looking at the shower
06.06 Ruth - March 4, 2025. song inspired by a girl i knew named Ruth. i recall thinking this was really good when i wrote it
06.07 Your eyes slay me- March 9, 2025. inspired by an old poem
06.08 Honeysuckle on her head - March 6, 2025. like "your eyes slay me" this was inspired by an old poem
06.09 Man in the Moon - March 12, 2025. similar to "your eyes" and "honeysuckle" olde tyme fare
06.10 Run for the hills - March 14, 2025. had no idea there was another song named this and have never heard it

WOLVES
05.01 Wolves - Feb 26, 2025 surrounded by evil and corrupted
05.02 At the top - Feb 24, 2025. a long time ago i really did think we were special. like our town and family was the center of the universe.
05.03 When the sparks begin - March 2, 2025. the end is near
05.04 World just went - Feb 28, 2025. i really, really, never had a chance
05.05 Don't celebrate - Feb 27, 2025. about methusala
05.06 Feel Love - Feb 28, 2025. to really feel love. the feeling is very strong
05.07 A Love Virtual - Feb 22, 2025.
05.08 Much on Mondays - Feb 24, 2025. i rarely do much on mondays
05.09 Under the sun - Feb 25, 2025. biblical
05.10 Stars - Feb 27, 2025. written one night in literally 2 minutes

HER LIFE
04.01 Out of the blue - written in 2002. previously was titled "An Angel came in to my life"
04.02 Captured - Feb 20, 2025. about that one perfect person you just will never get over
04.03 Hold back an ocean - written July 15, 2022. sometimes it's all just too much
04.04 Into the fray - Dec 19, 2002 originally all my tears are gone
04.05 Something's wrong - August 19, 2013
04.06 Even when we win - July 15, 2010 originally my wife my woman my lover my friend
04.07 Her Life - i wrote this song March 26, 2005. for Terri Schiavo.
04.08 Nobody Knows Me - my secret life. June 23, 2004
04.09 Find a way - written Jan 26, 2023. This song is about being in love with someone else and realizing that you can never leave the one you're with now, because you can't break their heart and do that to them. and the acceptance of that situation
04.10 Always 18 - June 11, 2012

ROADS
03.01 Orlando Feb 8, 2002 a song i wrote over 23 years ago about my gggreat uncle. and never really finished. but anyway -
03.02 California Dream -i wrote this song in 1993
03.03 Taste the rain - Sep 19, 2016
03.04 Another Day -I wrote this song in May 2004. seems longer than that. we go down roads in life intending to come back, but they lead us farther and farther away. and wanting so desperately to return to the place and the one you love not really knowing and afraid it might not still be there but believing it is
03.05 Far away from dallas - written 1998
03.06 The Mountain, part 1 - Jan 14, 2005. yes part 2 was written first
03.07 High on Love - Jan 4, 2021. silly song about my cousin
03.08 She used to cry - c. 1996
03.09 Closer to the worm - c. 2001
03.10 The Mountain, part 2 - Dec 14, 2004

WORLDS TO BURN
02.01 Worlds to burn - c. 1980s
02.02 Pretending - Jan 18, 2024. there is an end to nature, we need to know that.
02.03 Heart pours out - i wrote this song the day of the Boston Marathon bombing on April 15, 2013
02.04 Tempted - written 2002
02.05 Only love remains - c. 1980s
02.06 Peaceful Pride - written November 8, 2005
02.07 Mr. Monday - written c. 1988
02.08 Grin - Jan 27, 2025
02.09 Never was for me - written April 19, 2006
02.10 Rockets Red Glare -this was written circa 1991 gulf war. had no idea there was a person named this.

WORDS IN STONE
01.01 Words in stone - written in 2002.
01.02 Fighter - written July 23, 2020
01.03 Juarez state of mind - July 16, 2023
01.04 Amber waves - written c.1990
01.05 Tonight - Feb 16, 2019
01.06 Fine - written December 2004
01.07 Old school fool - Jan 27, 2025
01.08 The hard way - Jan 29, 2025
01.09 Before you build a tower - Fen 19, 2025. christian/biblical
01.10 Blanket answers - Feb 13, 2025. medical ratrace

COMPLETE SONG LIST COPYRIGHT ARTIST TREASURE N. JOENS
i wrote every word to every song i have posted on youtube. i have the original dated documents. all songs are copyright protected published and may not be used without permission.
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